One Day Left..

And I’m gone for at least a year.  It’s a lot to process, so I’m just going to watch “Sex and the City” (season five; almost done!) today.  I fly out at 1.08 tomorrow.  Wow.

I went to the school to pick up my yearbook, and I saw all of my old teachers.  I was so excited to see everyone, and it just hit me how hard college is going to be without them.  I’m still going to keep in touch, because I’m so close with a few of them, but I won’t get to see them everyday.  It’s going to be quite a change.

I’m afraid to go to college, especially with all this money crap hanging over my head, but I want to just leave and get it done already.  Everyone else is already started, settled, and loving it.

I want to be a college success story.


The Two Things I Won’t Miss…

Two more days until I leave Wyoming and head off to college.  Here are the two things that I won’t miss about Wyoming.

The first thing I won’t miss is the way I don’t fit in, and because I don’t fit in, the way the girls treated me.  I’ve always been out of place in Wyoming, because I’m not into sports (and God forbid you don’t like to watch them either…), and I’m not a farm girl.  I love Marilyn Manson, and I don’t like country music.  My opinions were always different than everyone else, and I wasn’t afraid to speak my mind.  All-in-all, everyone thought I belonged somewhere else, not a safe little Wyoming town.

The second thing I won’t miss is the slow internet.  It takes about an hour to download one song.  Enough said.

Now, I’m off to make a double layer coconut cake.  Yum.

My Loss in Photos…

When I looked through the photos after I took them, I was frustrated because I couldn’t show what I wanted to show.  The beauty of Wyoming in every blade of sun-bleached grass, every river rock, every pine cone.  I kept telling myself, “If you were a better photographer, you could photograph what you wanted to show.”

But then I realized that the beauty isn’t something you see just hiking one day.  The beauty I see is different from what you will see because I grew up here.  I’m looking at every blade of grass, every river rock, every pine cone through the lens of my childhood.

I understand that you won’t see what I see, because you don’t have a connection to this place, but take it for what it’s worth…

Another thing I’ll miss about Wyoming?  The water.  Nothing compares to Wyoming well water.

A Countdown…

I have three days left until I move away from Wyoming, and three days left of living in my very empty room.  (Which is a little bit disturbing.) To count down the days left, I’ve made a list of the three things that I’m going to miss about Wyoming.

The first thing I’m going to miss is the emptiness of Wyoming.  When I want solitude, it’s a simple, 5 minute walk and I can be on my own for as long as I want.  For some reason, I’m thinking that in Naperville, it’s going to be a whole lot harder to get away from people, because there’s so many people around.

The second thing I’m going to miss is the old-fashioned beauty of hills, trees and little creeks.  When I’m gone, I’m not going to be able to go on a hike to the places of my childhood, i.e. the frog-pond, the rope cave, “Baldie”.  I won’t be able to jump across little creeks, feeling like I’m going to drown if I misstep.

And the third thing I’m going to miss about Wyoming is the freedom.  (I know, it’s not that far removed from the other things on the list.)  Although some people think it’s frustrating to have to drive for at least an hour to get anywhere, I love the way it lets you think.  I can drive for the whole hour, and look at the landscape, remember times when I hiked there, or took pictures there.  I don’t have to worry about the cops coming if I feel like lighting off some fireworks at night.  I can run, walk, or hike anywhere that I want without having to worry about coming across another person who’s going to try to stop me.

Writing this list almost makes me cry.  It also makes me want to take a hike.  You can expect to see some pictures of Wyoming when I get back.

Belly=Baby, Salem=Shelter, Kittens=Missing, Shipping=Sucks, Packing=Nervewracking.

First of all, I want to congratulate my sister on her new addition.  Hudson Nicholas was born on August 23rd at 9:02 a.m.  He weighed in at 8 lbs, 3.1 oz, and was 19.5 inches long.  At his check-up yesterday, he gained 4 oz.  He’s adorable.

This past week has been hectic, and I haven’t had access to internet, except for my Palm, and there’s no way I’m going to write a whole blog post on that.  I was way excited to get one, and they do prove to be a way to kill time.  I don’t think I spent more than an hour away from it while I was at my sister’s house.

On the way home yesterday, the piece of crap car I’ve been driving since my other broke down, broke down about an hour and a half from home.  I called dad, and he came to get me, but he thinks the fuel pump went out.  Just like my other car.  Fuel pumps hate me, apparently.  So, the plan to take Salem to the shelter today isn’t happening, unless a car magically shows up that I can use.  I’m not really sure when I’m going to be able to take him, but I only have a few days left until I leave, and I have to take him soon.

I’ve been packing/cleaning all morning, and I’m a little sick of it already.  I was sure that I could fit all I needed to fit in both of my suitcases, but it’s already looking pretty bleak.  I’ve already picked through everything once or twice, making sure I really do need to bring it, and there’s still too much stuff to shove in my one suitcase.  My carry on is almost bursting at the seams because I shoved so many clothes in, and that’s not even counting the laundry I’m doing now.  I’ve already eliminated most of my summer clothes from the bag, things like tank tops, because I have a million, but it didn’t take long to fill the space left by them.  And I was also planning on sending the big, bulky things, such as towels, blankets and my winter coat, but when I got everything to the post office, the guy told me that the boxes were unacceptable, and I had to repack, and alas, there was no room left for my coat.  So I brought it home, thinking that it wouldn’t be a huge deal to have to pack it.  But it is.  And I would take all these things to the post office, box them up, and send them off, but I have no car to GET to the post office.  Oh wait a second, even in this town of 17 people, there is one!  I should probably get out of the house, and go see if they have boxes that I can send a few more things in.  Because I don’t especially want to send all my jackets.  I have about 4 hoodies that I want to bring, and a regular jacket.  Don’t forget the winter coat, either.

When dad picked me up yesterday, I asked how my kittens were doing.  Turns out Cairo and Felix went missing a few days ago, and haven’t returned.  They were my favorites.  The three that are left (Addison, Phoenix, and Pirate) aren’t as friendly.

I also need to finish getting a loan, because I have that extra $4,000 I can’t afford to pay before I start school.  I finally found a loan that I can apply for on my own, without a co-signer, but I looked at it on my phone.  I need to look at it, read details, and looks at interest rates before I let myself get too excited about it.  I hope that the two weeks before school starts is enough time to get it finalized.

And that’s pretty much all that’s going on in my world these days.  I’ll try to keep you updated while I finish packing (hopefully…), get Salem to a shelter, and move away from Wyoming.  (I miss my nephews already.)

My To-Do List

I haven’t been so good at blogging lately, and for that, I’m sorry.  I’m always finding something that I would rather do, and I don’t get around to blogging all that often.

Right now, Kyle is going to a doctor’s appointment to get shots, and today is my last day in Naperville.  I should be packing while he’s gone, but I can’t make myself do it right now.  There’s so many things I told myself, before coming to Naperville, I would do, such as getting a loan for the last $4000 of tuition, opening a bank account, and getting my phone switched over, but so far, none of these things have happened.  It’s frustrating, because I’m running out of time to do everything, and if I don’t get a loan, I’m not going to be able to go to college.  I need to figure out what I want to leave here, such as clothes, shoes, etc, so I can have more room for stuff I still need to bring, but I feel strange leaving things here, kind of like I shouldn’t be doing it.  But I guess I should get over that and get my stuff together.

There are other things I need to do at home, as well, and I hope I have the time to get everything done.  I need to take Salem to the shelter, pack everything that I’m not taking, and put it in storage, get my car stuff figured out, clean my room, see about possibly getting a loan from the Hulett bank, and closing my bank account and taking out the money to start an account in Naperville.  I also have to pay my cell phone bill, exchange all of my change for cash, and order checks for a new account (which sucks, because I still have several boxes of unused checks for my Hulett account).

I didn’t sleep so well last night, and this morning I’m sore.  Yesterday, I went to yoga with Kyle’s mom.  I was excited to go, because I figured, hey, it’s yoga, it can’t be that hard.  But when we got started, I was shocked at how hard it actually is.  It’s hard for me, as a beginning, to hold poses, but I didn’t really have trouble getting into them.  It was fun, and relaxing, and I’m glad I went.  Even though I’m sore today, I want to go again, because it was such a peaceful environment, with soft music and low lighting.  The instructor was fun, and she only corrected me three times.

Last night, Kyle and I watched “The Girl Next Door” on Netflix.  From the comments, we expected it to be pretty disturbing, but apparently, we aren’t shocked by the same things other people are.  It’s loosely based on the story of Sylvia Likens, and her murder.  It was a little bit chilling, and some parts shocked the hell out of me.  There’s another film (“An American Crime“) that is closer to the actual story, and now I really want to watch that.

I’m off to eat some breakfast, and get my things together.  Wish me luck.

Writer’s Block

I’ve been having a hard time coming up with something to write about, because although I’ve had a lot of fun here in Naperville, I don’t feel like describing what we’ve been doing.  Mostly, it’s hanging out at the house, playing board games, eating, and talking.

Like I said yesterday, the ticket is bought, and I’m not at all prepared for what comes after that.  As I lay in bed last night, trying to fall asleep, I realized that I did not ration off time to pack and say my goodbyes.  From the moment I get home from this trip, I leave for my sister’s, and come back the day before flying out.  I was naive to think that I could pack all that I need in one day.  I have no idea what I was thinking when I planned all that out.

I’m running out of things to say.