Realization

I have a class called People and Nature, and it focuses on how people interact with their environment.

This course is an introduction to the interdisciplinary field of Environmental Studies from a humanities perspective. Students will read some of the most important books by American authors about the complicated and changing relationships between people and the rest of nature. These classic environmental tests offer insights into perceptions and uses of nature. This course aims to help students interpret arguments about environmental issues and understand their social, historical, and political context.  -From North Central College class catalog

The assignment for today was a “field report” about a time we went exploring into a new place.  When we were discussing our reports, the professor asked a question that stopped my in my tracks.

“If you enjoyed your explorations, why did you stop?”

I was speechless when she looked at me.  I really had no idea why I had stopped.  There were a million reasons rushing through my head, but I dismissed each one as an excuse.  I wouldn’t get lost on trails through the forest preserve.  People were willing to go with me if I didn’t want to be alone.  I had a way to get there.  Though the places here aren’t like they are at home, nature is beautiful wherever you are.

I’ve been feeling isolated, and I’m not sure what it is exactly; the lack of friends, a niche, etc (though I’m looking forward to the Open Needle Night at 6), and maybe it can be remedied by getting back into nature.  It seems like I have all these revelations, but I have a hard time following through on them.  I try to get involved at college, but I’m not as brave as I think I am.  I’m not very sociable either.  I have a hard time being with people my own age, but I do well with older adults, which will probably be the majority of Open Needle Night.

Wish me luck.

A Place I Can Call My Own

Moving to college, away from my family, my friends, my environment, as you know, was really hard for me, and the effects seem to be hitting me right now.  I’ve struggled to make friends, keep friends, and find somewhere where I’m accepted.  I’m shy enough that it’s hard to just talk to others, but I also don’t know how to make friends.  I came from a small town in Wyoming, and I knew everyone.  I didn’t have to make friends because I knew people, and they were automatic friends.  But here, I’m lucky if I know one person in my classes.  And if I do know them, I’m lucky if they actually like me.

I haven’t found a niche here yet, not that I’m trying all that hard.  I’m scared that I’ll get rejected instantly, and rather than face that, I just stay in my room with my door closed playing the “poor me” game, sometimes crying in bed.  I’m not fishing for pity here, I’m just stating a fact.

When I was moving back to college, I noticed a word on a window.  Fibers.  I got super excited and was almost jumping out of my skin.  It was closed all of the times I tried to go, but today when I got off of work, I headed over there.  Instantly, I felt welcome.  Just the aura of the room made me feel like I had left Naperville and went back home where everyone knew me.

I bought yarn.

100% Bamboo yarn:

100% Acrylic yarn (I’m not a huge fan of acrylic, but this is so pretty.):

There is Open Needle Night tomorrow, and I’ll be there.  This might be my niche.

Tuesday Questions

1.) Mood:
I woke up at about 7:45 well rested and ready for the day, but the more I think about my first class of the day, the more nervous I get.  MATH.

2.) When was the last time you bought an actual CD (not downloaded off of iTunes, but a physical disc)?
I bought Marilyn Manson’s two newest CDs last summer I believe.

3.) What sounds do you hear right at this very moment?
The fan on my computer (which is extremely loud), my crunching of an apple, and my typing.

4.) Current nail polish:
Clear.

5.) Do you sleep with socks on?
It depends where I am (and what sheets are on the bed).  I have really rough heels (gross, I know), and they tug on the sheets.  So when I have my jersey sheets on the bed, I usually wear socks.

6.) I never go a day without ___________.
Texting, talking, breathing, eating, washing my hands, sleeping, reading, etc.

7.) Current outfit:
Green Element shirt that I got Kyle for our first Christmas (nostalgia!) that’s too small for him, and teal plaid linen pants that I sleep in.

8.) What is your all time favorite lip gloss?
I don’t have a favorite lip gloss, but I do love Raspberry Shine from the CoverGirl TruShine lipstick line.  It looks (and moisturizes!) like a lip gloss…

9.)Where do you keep your cell phone at night?
It’s plugged in next to my bed, so sometimes I fall asleep with it under my pillow (then it wakes me up when I get something in the night), but most of the time, its on my “nightstand” (which is actually just a pile of totes haha).

10.) Weekly goals:
Get my two assignments done that are due Thursday (I haven’t even had class yet, and there’s something due), maybe start a hat with my new yarn, read the NINE books I put on hold for myself before they’re due, and wait patiently for my book.  It shipped to Annette’s house, but she’s on vacation, and the boys are with their dad in Florida,  Which means, my package (JEAN. M. AUEL.) will sit outside for a week.  It came out today, but I won’t have it for awhile.

Back at College

So I’m back at college and this morning went to my first class of the term.  After, I checked the mail (as always).  I had packages!  They were mostly books for class, but also, my yarn that I was super excited to get back to.

Bachelor Button: (a gorgeous dusty blue/purple)

Wisteria: (a really light purple that looks gray next to grays, blue next to blues, and purple next to purples; it would bring the purple out of Bachelor Button)

Robot: (a super light gray that instantly caught my eye…I love grays!)

French Blue: (A deep but bright ultramarine blue)

Cadet: (A silvery light blue)

I’m not sure why, but the blues and grays really caught my eye this time.  Cadet is Wool of the Andes, and all of the rest are Shine Worsted.  The Shines are all super soft and shiny (as the name sort of implies).  I haven’t had the urge to knit yet, but when it hits, I’ll be ready.

Cinnamon Rolls

As I promised, here’s the post about making my grandma’s homemade cinnamon rolls.  I’m not going to tell you the recipe, because it’s a hush hush deal at home, but I am giving you a sneak peek into the actual making of them.

You mix all the ingredients and let it rise.  Then, you roll it out into a big, kinda even square.  Spread butter all over it, then cover it with brown sugar.

After the brown sugar, you sprinkle it with cinnamon.  We didn’t have any cinnamon here, so I had to grind my own from a cinnamon stick.

After the cinnamon is sprinkled on, you roll it up.  It kept sticking to the counter top for me…next time, more flour.

When it’s all rolled up, admire it for a few seconds.  This thing is heavy…like 7 pounds or something.

Cut it in half. (Look at that spiral!)

Keep cutting.  I was instructed to cut in half, cut in half, then cut in thirds.  That worked out nicely.

Before you get it all cut up, you make the caramel sauce, which is whipping cream, butter and brown sugar melted all together in a saucepan.  You put that in the dish you’re baking the rolls in.

Place the cut up rolls on top of the sauce.  They kept unrolling for me, which was frustrating. (They look like sardines!)

Pop them into the oven.

Bake at 350 for 20 minutes (more for me).

(Here’s a sneak peek of them inside the oven, baking away.)

Take them out.

Flip them onto a dish (I chose a cookie sheet).  The bottom, which is all gooey with caramel sauce, will now become the top.

They taste like home :)

P.S.  My new swimming suit for the Wisconsin Dells trip Kyle and I are taking tomorrow! :)  I got it at PacSun for $14. 50 a piece.  Nautical stripes in navy blue are really in…and I love it!

Tuesday Questions

1.) Mood:
Tired.  I had a really hard time sleeping (and staying asleep) last night, and I finally got out of bed at 7ish.

2.) What is your favorite flower?
Tulips, roses, orchids, tiger lilies…I love all flowers.

3.) What sound is the alarm you wake up to in the morning?
Nothing because I’m on break…but at school, its a beep beep beep, then a beepbeepbeep, then a BEEP!BEEP!BEEP!.

4.) Current nail polish:
Atomic (L.A. Colors) on my fingers, which has been peeling off, but it’s been on for a week now, and Silver Metallic (L.A. Colors) on my toes.  It’s been on for about a month and a half now.

5.) Would you rather have a huge closet or a spacious bathroom (implying that the other would be tiny)?
Huge bathroom; believe it or not, the bathroom is one of my favorite rooms to hang out in.  Playing with make-up, lotioning, exfoliating, etc.

6.) If you could relive one year of your life, which would it be?
I haven’t really had a relivable year yet…

7.) Current outfit:
Green Element shirt (that I got Kyle for our first Christmas–3 years ago!  It’s too small, so I kept it), and AE sweatpants (that stay soft no matter how many times I wash them) that I got in Denver.

8.) What was your favorite Halloween costume as a kid?
I honestly don’t even remember dressing up when I was a young kid.  I’ve had some pretty cool teen costumes though.

9.) Have you ever been able to talk your way out of a speeding ticket?
I’ve never been pulled over…Ever!

10.) Weekly goals:
Get through the dentist tomorrow (I’ll blog about it, and do a before and after picture), shop with Annette, talk with the financial aid people at school, and make homemade cinnamon rolls today!  Definitely will blog about that!

Battle of the Plants

(I’m sorry I haven’t been very good at this post a day thing this month!)

You know how much I love my plants (even naming them), so you can imagine that I felt a little bad and a littler superior when Kyle’s pepper plants weren’t growing.  They weren’t even starting.  I helped him to take care of them so they sprouted, and lo and behold, they did.

But, I’m not so sure that I’m happy about this.  I’m actually a little jealous.

My Chammy at about 1.5 months old.

His pepper at about 1 week (the right one) and 1 day (the left one).

This is not fair.