As If

As if the last hair change wasn’t drastic enough.

After waking up yesterday and being really off, I realized that I needed a change.  The one thing that I can change without needing permission (not that I really need permission for anything I do, but I digress) is my hair.  And change it I did.

I buzzed it off while listening to dubstep and bouncing in front of the mirror.  I left a lot of the top, but after watching “V for Vendetta”, I wanted to buzz it all off (but I restrained myself).

I like it.  It’s so soft.

(This is the part in the movie where I’m institutionalized.)


Like the Girl with the Dragon Tattoo

We went to see Girl with the Dragon Tattoo, and although I had a hard time watching it (because of the incredibly violent rape scenes), I couldn’t (and still can’t) get it out of my head.

It stayed with me.

Lisbeth Salander’s character resonated within me, and I haven’t been able to stop thinking about her.  In fact, my computer has a picture of her for my desktop background image.  She’s edgy and sexy, but vulnerable and deeply beautiful at the same time.  Her tough demeanor, frightening through and through, caught me, and I’m still waiting to be let down.

I’m on this high, and I’ve been craving some change (I’ve gotten really itchy what with school starting back up again), and I figured that my hair was going.  I thought and thought and thought about this change, and unlike my last haircut, I didn’t feel an ounce of regret, not even a twinge, thinking about cutting it all off.

I was smart and texted my boss to ask if a drastic hair change meant a lost job, and was relieved when he told me that I would still have a job after the haircut.

My roommate did it for me, with some help from her mom (who was up for her birthday; Happy Birthday, Sarah!), and a lot of input from me.  The bangs scared me; blunt, across the forehead, and inches above my brows.  But as the inches fell, I fell more and more in love with this hairstyle; even the bangs are cute.

I wiggled with excitement as she turned the clippers on and shaved the sides of my head (in fact, I asked her to go even shorter than 1/4″).

As the hair fell on the ground (resembling a dead animal), my stomach was going crazy, and I tried hard not to grin (so I wouldn’t get a mouthful of hair).

At the halfway point (both sides shaved and the blunt bangs), she went out with her family for dinner.  I was left alone in the room, fingers twitching trying not to finish it off.  I couldn’t keep my hands away from the shaved portions of my head, or my eyes away from my reflection in the mirror.

As she cut the long bits, I kept telling her “Shorter, shorter; it needs to be shorter”.  More and more came off, making the pile of hair look like a large dead animal.

Kyle came in, and his grimace made my stomach fall a little bit.

“I don’t like the bangs.”

By the end of the cut, Kyle was smiling and nodding and telling me how great it looked.  Honestly, I was a bit afraid to look in the mirror.  When I did, and started messing with my newly shorn locks, I almost died.

I LOVE it.

Here it is wet straight out of the shower, with no messing around with it.

I love wearing a hat with it.  And along with my new “heroin chic“/grungy makeup, it looks awesome.

I get all sorts of looks; lingering looks from guys trying to figure me out, disgusted looks from the preppy girls I walk past in my haste to get to class, and shocked looks from everyone who recognizes me without my long hair.  I also get a lot of compliments on it, which are always welcome.

Next up?  A nose piercing.

An Update From Wyoming

It’s been weeks and weeks since I last posted, and every time I think of my lonely blog, sitting with no posts, I feel bad.  It’s not that I have nothing to post about, its just that I have no desire to sit and write anything.

I’m in Wyoming now; I’ll be here another week.  It’s snowing outside, and it makes me feel all sorts of cozy feelings.  The house is quiet, and I just want to sit by the window, read, drink some hot tea, and watch the snow fall.

Let me outline a few things that have happened since I last made an effort to keep up a blog.

1. I cut my hair.  It’s hideous.  I meant to cut an inch or so off, and then I went and messed it up so badly that 6 inches or so came off.  It’s just up to my shoulders, but I hate it.  The only time I wear it down is when I’m about to get in the shower, and directly after, when I haven’t put it back up.  I’m just waiting for it to get long again.

2. I traveled home.  Obviously, since I’m in Wyoming now.  It’s beautiful here; it’s taken me years away to realize just how pretty it actually is.  I’ve had a good trip so far; I’ve seen almost everyone I wanted to see, and I haven’t run into anyone I didn’t want to see.  My one regret was not stopping by the school before they went on break to visit with my old teachers.  But I got to spend a good chunk of time with Shelby and Brayden, and with my nephews (time that I hope to expand on).

3. I went to my very first wedding, and I didn’t even know the couple.  I went with Ryan and April (a couple I babysat for when I lived at home) to help with the kids, and ended up enjoying myself.  The 8 hour trip both ways with screaming/fighting/crying children?  Not so much.

The best part of the wedding?  The adorable hot chocolate ornaments!

4. I got three new tattoos.  I won’t show them in this post (if you’re friends with me on Facebook, you saw them the day I had them done), because I want to write a separate post about all of my tattoos; where I went, how long they took, the prices, how I took care of them, the pain factor, etc, because I’ve been getting a lot of questions about my experience with tattooing.  Because it is such an important thing to me (I do have 7 tattoos now; I fancy myself sort of a tattoo guru), I want to devote some time to it to make it a good post.

5. I’ve fallen in love with the peace of Wyoming.  It makes me not want to go back to the classes and work and stresses of Naperville.  Surprise, surprise; I don’t want to go back to school still.  I won’t run this into the ground, because if you’ve read my blog before, you know how I feel about school; if not, then I’ll leave it at: I hate school.  I hate everything about it; staying in one place for 4 years, going to classes (some that I hate), worrying about money, needing to have a full-time job even with being a full-time student, and most of all, not having the freedom to do what I want when I want to do it.

So that’s pretty much all that’s been happening with me (along with other little tiny things that would take weeks to fill you in on), and I’m off to write a few posts so I actually have them done, just in case I’m not able to post the rest of my trip.  I hope everyone is doing okay and enjoying the week leading up to Christmas.

I’ll leave you with this gratuitous picture of the winter landscape of Wyoming that I’m finding so beautiful right now.

Random Wednesday

1. I’m excited to go back to work after three days off, but worried about what it’s going to do to my body (exhaustion-wise).

2. I really want to write a novel, but the storyline is a little hazy.

3. And I’m pretty sure it wouldn’t be able to keep my attention long enough to be finished.

4. I also want to knit.

5. While writing the novel.

6.  Which is ridiculous, because it takes two hands to knit, and at least one hand to write a novel.  (Well, it takes at least one hand to write much of anything.)

7. I suppose I could try dictation.

8. But who would want to listen to me while I told a story and made them write it all down?

9. My roommate’s family brought a chocolate cake to us.

10. I crave it almost constantly.  I think I’ve eaten maybe 1/4 of it.

11. When I straighten my hair, I look like a completely different person.

12. See?

13. My phone takes better pictures than my camera.

14.  My hair gets more tangled when it’s straight than when it’s curly.

15. What sense does that make?

Brown to Red

For about a week, I’ve been rocking the red ‘do, and I promised several people to blog about the change from dark brown to such a bright shade of red.  I’m not a professional, so don’t rely on what I did for your own hair.  I did my research and I suggest you do your own, as well.

So I started off with hair that looked like this:

It’s my natural color and I haven’t done much coloring to it since I’ve been in college.  I had a perm done in June 2010, so that’s the curl you see.  I made sure not to wash my hair the day I was planning to color it, and the first step was to cover my hairline in Repelle.

I got mine at Sally’s for about $4, but I’ve heard that Vaseline works just as well (and is cheaper).  I made sure to color everywhere my hair might brush; hairline, behind my ears, and on top of my ears.  (The color ended up getting everywhere else, but it washed off my skin really easily.)  For color, I used L’Oreal Technique Excellence HiColor HiLights in Magenta.  I got mine from Sally’s.  Each tube was about $6, and I got two.  This dye is made especially for dark hair, which is why my hair got so bright.

The developer I got was the one recommended for this color: L’Oreal Technique Oreor Creme Volume 30.

I could have used Volume 40 to get a much brighter color, but this stuff is harsh on hair.  If your hair is lighter than mine, go lower, perhaps Volume 20 or 10, because you won’t need much lift.  I also picked up some long metal clips (which was an amazing idea, because they held all the colored hair out of the way), a brush for the color, a mixing bowl, plastic gloves and some processing caps from Ulta and Sally’s.  After squeezing the entire tube of color into the bowl, I added the developer and mixed until it was completely smooth.  This is what we ended up with:

I sectioned my hair a bit to begin with (to make it easier on Krista, who was applying the color), and I slipped a plastic bag (which had been cut in certain spots) on and got ready to be colored:

Like I said before, the color got everywhere.  This is only one example of it getting places it didn’t belong; the “hickey”:

After Krista applied the color to my head, I slipped the cap on, and colored a section of her hair on the bottom with the leftover color (we ended up having to mix both tubes for all my hair).

We had to wait for 30 minutes, and that entire time was spent cleaning up the mess we had made in the bathroom.  Finally, I jumped in the shower and gently rubbed my hair under warm water.  I used a bit of Johnson’s baby soap (Krista has a little bother) to get the color off my forehead and neck, and rubbed a bit through my hair to remove the slick feeling.  After the water ran pretty much clear (just a bit pink), I rubbed some conditioner for red hair through and then rinsed.  I tried not to look at my hair as I towel dried it.

I blow-dried to get the true color:

And then ran a straightener over to make it sleek (because my hair gets poufy if I blow dry it):

When I went out the other night to see “Final Destination 5 3D”, I curled it a bit and was really happy with the results.

And that was my journey from brown to red.

Spring! (And Care Package!)

The snow is almost all melted off and I can see grass again!  Although it’s a little soggy, and not green at all, just the sight makes me extremely happy.  I’ve been keeping my window open at night, and I’ve been sleeping fantastically.

But even the nice, warm weather can’t make me feel better after forgetting about a mythology test.  I missed class the other day because I didn’t feel up to going, and now I regret it.  I finished in 30 minutes, and headed to the mailroom, hoping in my head, “I hope I get a care package to make me feel better….”.  Well, I did.

This was enough to make me feel better :) I’ll do swatches of the makeup soon.  Thank you, Stacia! <3


Edited to add:

You guys, I totally forgot to do my love list!  I explained this last Friday…It’s a list of the things I loved this week:

  1. Getting a care package filled to the brim with things I LOVE.  Thank you so much Stacia!  I feel like I can’t thank you enough!  You always cheer me up :)
  2. Spring is finally here!  The weather is warm enough that I actually wore flip flops for about an hour (but ending up with mud under my feet, and cold toes).
  3. Watching my plants flourish!  I actually tossed out my polka dot plant (it was dying so fast.  I didn’t have the heart to watch it.  I also felt really bad that I didn’t give it an extra week to possibly come back.  I almost cried.  Sad, right?) today to make room for the soon to be sprouted Spearmint and Chamomile plants.  I can’t wait.
  4. I’m only supposed to do three (I don’t know why, that’s just the rules!), but I’m also loving my new haircut.  It’s nothing special, just 3/4 inch off, and some bangs added, but I feel like a brand new woman!  With spring in the air, and a new look, I’m ready for a new season! :)

What did you enjoy this week?  Have a great weekend!

A Different View

This morning started out early, 7 a.m. early.  I dragged myself out of bed so I could make it to my 7:30 final (Biology), and on the way out, I grabbed some pop-tarts that I ate while walking.

The final didn’t go so well, I think.  I didn’t really know anything until the 70th question.

When I got back at 8:30, I packed.  Rachel was still sleeping so I tried to be quiet.  I gathered everything up, and wondered how I got so much stuff, coming all the way from Wyoming with only a carry-on a checked bag.

I knew I had to get everything out of the room so I could clean it for the girls moving in, but the room I was moving into wasn’t quite ready for me yet.  So I did the next best thing and piled everything I had into the hallway.

This is only half of it.

Then I played the waiting game.  The girls weren’t quite ready to move yet, and most of them were still sleeping or taking finals.  I swept and made sure that all the little dust bunnies found a new home, and in doing so, moved everything around.  It’s crazy how light this furniture is.

When everyone was finally ready to get moving, I started feeling like maybe this wasn’t the best idea.  I was missing my room already.  But I packed everything up, and I carried it down the hall.  I brought everything in and dumped it onto my new bed.  I didn’t get pictures of all the steps, but believe me when I say I organized everything.

After I got the bed made up, I stepped back and took everything in.

It didn’t look so different.  It’s more organized, but only because I haven’t had a chance to mess it all up.  It smells the same, because I have the same bar in my Scentsy.  But the view is definitely different.

Speaking of different, I colored my hair the other night.  I used Revlon Colorsilk in color 49 (Auburn Brown).  I was looking for something warmer than what I had, and darker too.  It looks super red in the box, but once I got it on my hair, it turned out very dark.  I love it.

I did the coloring about an hour before I went to work.

I think it turned out wonderful.

What do you think?  Too red or just right?